woяds iи my heαяt ♥

My family ♥

2012-02-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

Them

My beloved one.

They are always there for me especially

in school. Without them, i would not

laugh like no people business every single day.

Aww, i just love them lots :)

*there is still some missing one*

Two years of being in the same class with some of them, awesome

To most of them who have been in the same class with

me since Form 1, i'm so glad of knowing and being

in the same class with you guys (;

I remember some of us used to argue most of the time

but luckily, we don't now.

As usual, not mature enough that time.

Oh, luckily we're understanding enough and kind enough

to be friends again, HAHA.

Sometimes, when you think back about your childhood life,

dont you think is silly ?

Teacher with us :)

♥

Sometimes i wonder, what will actually to us next year when most

of us might lose contact with each other ?

I totally don't wanna miss it even the not close one.

As mummy said,

'high school life is the best time to make friend and have fun'

Its true :)

I wish our friendship could always last.

Especially my love ones ♥

2012-02-17T19:02:00.002+08:00

There she is , my dearest.

The one who accompany me throughout the years.

Facing all the ups and downs in life, i really appreciate it.

This year would not be an easy year for us. Personally, it is because of exam.

I don't know whether i'm stress about studies because i'm pushing myself too hard

or it is what i suppose to feel as a student. Putting studies aside, i think i'm still not

that confidence in anything i do, although i always look like one but i don't.

Do know, 'what you see doesn't stands for what it is'.

But i know, no one could help me except myself in all aspect but somehow i felt that

i need a lot of courage of being a better person.

After long time of thinking and worrying about this and that, i know that its useless

without picking up actions. Words are always easy than doing, this is life. #fact

All the problems that came to me, i shared with her.

No matter she could or she couldn't help me, i still tell her about it.

She has became the ONLY one i could really talk to, i don't know why, maybe she's the reason.

Although sometimes, someday, we don't agree with each other but yet i know

the reason why she behave such way.

I won't say, my relationship as a good friend with her will break one day after we step into

our college life or working life but we know we will always stand for each other and be there

for each other. The promise we should always keep.

2012-02-03T16:07:00.002+08:00

Just a blink of an eye, its already come to the second month of the year.

January was so far so good to me and i hope rest of the month will just be the same.

During Chinese New Year,

Besides the laughters, fun and red packets went on in my mind, there's still others thing.

I've actually learned that, there's no point of worrying and thinking so much if there's

no actions taken , there will be definitely no results from it.

Its suppose to be a new year in the Chinese lunar calendar if i'm not mistaken perhaps during

this days, i have started thinking back about the past again.

But it doesn't matter much as life goes on no matter you're sad or happy.

Words couldn't hurt as much as the one who said about it.

It should really gone out of my mind since it has been quite some time but maybe

the emotional and time brought me back to the past but i will never let myself

emotionally break down again.

'' I've learned to live half alive, i'll not make myself fall back to the time'' :)

I think, i should start spending more time on my studies but there's lots of bitrthday

event coming up, argh ! I wish i could wave the magic wand and get all my answer done

correctly, goodness. How all of us wish.

Its time to stop i guess, i have been talking lots from just now.

Hahaa. Will have a good talk again next time, toodles.

Take care, readers. ♥

My Chinese New Year :)

2012-02-03T15:22:00.006+08:00

It has been quite some time since i've update anything in my blog.

As all Form 5 students should know, its a busy year for us to actually fit in all the outings

and examination together. Well, i couldn't really manage to balance everything now as

always i'll be tired after school where there's still lots of homework, project and presentation

preperation waiting for me to get it done.

But luckily, there was a chinese new year break for me to rest :)

I will just share some of my celebration week with you all.

Lets see.

Malacca

with them

Am sorry for not sharing much picture in this post, maybe next time

because most of the pic is with the other person. :)

Form f-i-v-e life

2012-01-16T13:39:00.004+08:00

Seriously, form 5 life ain't easy for me.

There's always tons of work waiting for me to catch up with. I really have no time to

rest at all. How many of us could really bare with this kind of stress ?

First week of school, there's already homework for us to settle with.

As usual, beginning of the year, lots of activities are carried out by the school and its a really

challenging and busy year to be with.

I don't expect more but just satisfy myself with the upcoming exam's result.

Maybe A and B only ? Its really impossible for me to do so as it is really difficult

to understand some of the subject especially the physics and chemistry.

Oh well, maybe i really have no choice but just to force myself study for it ?

No matter how, i will try my best and maybe is a good thing so ? So that it could keep

me busy than thinking other thing as well :)

Maybe is not that bad after all, haha ! *thinking positively*

But i just hope that i could really bare with it as there will be more stress in the future, maybe

during college time. Sometimes, i just burst into tears for no reason and feel like crying.

Maybe i should jog more like how i used to do to forget about the past, last time :)

Bless me. ♥

Fortunately, i have a good and understanding parents who guide me all the way.

Dad & mum, i love both of you lots :)

I really need to thank to the past for giving me such big courage to share every single thing

in my life now with my dearest parents. Many of the teenage don't do so but i think sharing with them all this moment are really worth it.

Even if they don't agree and understand us, at least we told them how we do in life recently.

Just feel happy being with them :) ♥

Loves ♥

countdown for new year

2012-01-16T12:59:00.005+08:00

New year , new resolutions.

Last year was that a good year for me and all i hope is, this year would be a better year.

Darkness please stay away from me :)

As usual, pictures will do the talking.

- Sunway surf beach countdown concert

- New year countdown at sunway hotel entrance

Have fun ;)

in hotel :)

Rania, korean group

family ♥

love ♥

It has been days and months since i've been living happily, please let me keep it :)

Loves all ♥

Christmas :)

2011-12-24T17:19:00.005+08:00

On this christmas, on this special day which i used to name it as, what can i do ?

To be honest, this christmas is not a sad christmas to me.

Because of the past, i learned how to appreciate everything around me even more.

Family and friends are important to me now.

I know how it hurts to be left behind as i try not to do it to anyone one of them

from the day it ends.

They are the one who accompany and comfort me when i'm dead crying almost everyday.

From that day onward, i love them more and now they are precious ♥

我喜欢这样简简单单的过生活 :)

How i wish Malaysia will snow and have us a white christmas :D

I love snowy christmas, muahaha ! :P

Merry Christmas people ♥

The bond between us :)

2011-12-24T16:18:00.005+08:00

Three lonely person went Redbox, Midvalley the other day.

Basically is to release all the sad thing that happen again and again.

Oh well, is all past tense and since i have promise myself not to write anything

sad in my blog like i used to, i will try :)

After all, is not easy to keep it all to myself.

Should always be happy no matter what :)

p/s : Gained weight but i will make sure i will get rid of it :D haha !

2011-12-21T14:45:00.010+08:00

Double jumble :)
Why i said so ? Because i gonna relate a few things together in this post.
Well, we went down to Pavillion and bought new shoe before going for
holiday in Krabi, Thailand and the place was just awesome !
Another best destination for holiday, you should start planning your's now :)
Ahaha ! :D

Alright, i almost die there and oh well, it was a very terrifying experience
i have ever had and i wish no more.
Its kind of long and if you want to know, ask me one day :)
And yea, there'll be a pic showing our foot, oh well it was our new shoes, haha !
There's another purple colour which is my youngest sis's but since she is not here, forget about it ;)

I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH ❤

my amazing trip with love ones ❤

Its like a dance floor :)

2011-12-21T14:21:00.003+08:00

Pitbull rock Sunway like a dance floor.
Its amazing seeing people dancing on the surf beach and having fun with all the
songs and friends together. What a great day would it be, right ?
It was raining heavily at first, the show delayed for about an half half, its
pretty long but with cocktails and new friends, it wouldnt be that bored :)

Enjoyed a lot although i dont really go into their songs but well,
its still good for me, spending time with the love ones :)
Oh well, let the picture do the talking.

With love ♥

2011-12-04T23:02:00.003+08:00

Boooohoo :D
I've lots to update but i'm lazy to update so often now days.

Well, I-city was officially open for such a long time but i have just visited it about a week

ago. Doesn't matter right ?

It was raining that time, cooling fresh air was just every where around me, haha !

So, the same thing i will be saying. scroll down :)

blogger's picture upload is slow.

am sorry :D

They took my heart beat off :)

2011-12-01T16:02:00.007+08:00

Family day

A day trip around kl, woohoo.

I really enjoy spending my time with them.

well, i have nothing to say, just randomly update my blog. hehe :D

In space ;P

A day i spent with you

2011-12-01T14:44:00.006+08:00

This is what happen when we're together :)
Had lots of fun with my girlfriend that day, helped her with her ballet

concert thing and i went to her house for a night, my very first time :P

Hehe. Though i was tired, i still feel good. ahaha !

Kind of speechless now,
scroll down for pictures :)

her pressie from me ;)

A tiring day with love :)

where your stomach smiles to you :)

2011-11-25T11:40:00.005+08:00

A day out with my love since 2weeks of being a good girl at home, haha ! :D
Went to Jogoya@Starhill for lunch and shop around in Kl.

Is another day of memories for me, always enjoy being with her :)

Let the picture do the talking ;)

Oh pretty well, christmas is in the corner again.

This year, who am i gonna celebrate it with ? No matter who it is, i just hope i will pass

the day with smile and laughters :)

I'm kind of excited anyway, ahaha !

Who wanna send me surprise present ? Ask my address from me :D hahaha !

The biggest wish i want during Christmas is a happy day, thats all i want :)

Loves people :D

Family Dinner :)

2011-11-22T17:46:00.003+08:00

Today, i realized so much that i do have a happy family.

A really very warm and lovely family.

Especially my parents, no matter what i mistake i made in the past, they are always

the one who will forgive me and give me a new start.

I love them more than anything i do in this world ♥

Had a dinner buffet today.

Took some photos, let's look at it :)

[p/s : its kind of ugly]

We pose, we smile, we act and we laugh

happy family ♥

The good deeds :)

2011-11-20T17:55:00.004+08:00

School holiday has officially started about a week ago. Some might be busy planning how

the should spend their holidays and some might be rotting at home, doing nothing.

I guess i'm pretty much different from the others.

Well, i spend my holiday by visiting the orphanage almost everyday and let me tell you, its

really tiring. Sometimes i'm just too tired to get up early in the morning and drag myself to

go for the visit. Since dad doesn't want us to stay home that often, well,

its a no choice i guess ? Ahaha !

I'll share something about there then :)

Sally

Jasmine

baby, haha

the kids :)

toys time

When it comes to the word, 'orphan'. How many of us will really understand it ?

Most of us will probably answer, orh well, orphan means the kids who doesn't have parents or the child who got dump by their parents.

After since I went there, i truly understand that in an orphanage it doesn't only have

children that doesn't have parents. Some of them are single parent's child and even some of

them are down sendrum. I really felt pity for them as they couldn't be like other kids

who are much luckier than them, enjoying life with new electronic devices, going for holiday here and there and most important is the love from their parents.

I just couldn't understand why some of the parents are daring enough to torture

their OWN child or just left them off somewhere where they felt they

could not take care of them. Can't they just be a little more mature with what

they are doing before they actually regret it ?

Well, just like the girl who is named , sally.

She really impressed me with all her hard work and compassion.

According to the doctor, she is deaf and dumb but i think she's just a nearly to it.

Because of her family background, she was sent to this orphanage since she was a baby, if

i'm not mistaken. A pretty , 11 years old girl like her who couldn't be send to school because she

is deaf and dumb is totally unfair as she could really draw and write well.

Sometimes when i see her, i really felt like crying. She try to speak with us, draw to us and even

show sign languages to tell us what she wants. Its really pityful because sometimes we just could't get what she means and it made her frustrated.

Just imagine, you kept repeating the same thing to your friend and he/she still don't get what you mean. After some time, you will get pissed off right ? That is what exactly her feeling is.

I just hope that her appeal to enter the special school is approve next year , so that she could

actually go to school like the other kids who go to school with all their friends , recess with them and even go home with each other. I want her to feel the same like the others and not lonely like always anymore.

In this home, there is not only children but also old folks. Sometimes being in this 'home' is really the best choice to them. I actually talked to some of the grannies there and they really shared a lot of their life experience with me. I really felt touch and well, this is life.

Most of them in this home are mentally abused. Its really scary when they suddenly comes to you and started shouting but i understand their feelings as well. As it is not what they want but

their emotional has been over take by the other side of the nature.

It is not about the oldies being dump to this home or some other reasons but yet there are

some of them who self willing to stay at this 'home'. Its simple, the reason some of them

told me was, 'since, i've nothing to do at home and no one is there for me to talk or share my

thoughts with, might self be at this 'home' when there's still someone who will accompany me ?'

Yes, i agree with her because this 'home' is never quiet. Even a granny whose son is a lawyer, an air force engineer who earns thousands of dollars chose to stay in this 'home'. To them,

at least by staying in this 'home' there are still love from friends and the kids but at if they

are at their own home where no one is there to be for her, she could felt nothing, not even a sound of a child laughing.

Well, i guess this home is a choice of place to those who needs and don'ts.

This is the second place i have venture which touched my heart with all the meaning

real situations. I thank my parents for also being supportive enough to do whatever

they can to provide them a good condition place to stay in.

I can proudly say, i'm lucky to have such lovely parents. Without them, i'm nothing at all.

I appreciate whatever i have today and one day i will also provide whatever i can for

the need ones :)

To see changes, we must first change and make the first move

Loves.

2011-11-12T12:23:00.002+08:00

It was a great awesome day, yesterday. Had lots of fun with my love ones.

We played badminton for about 3 hours and its really tiring. It has been years since

we did something like this, maybe a year ? i guess.

Oh well, of course i'm having bodyache now, haha ! Well, it really do worth for me.

At least we spent some time together.

I'm being sick enough to entertain all the unwanted stuff that is happening around

me now days. Their actions make no sense at all and yet they still wanna go for it and i

am not giving a damn on it anymore.

I will just shut my mouth and be patience with whatever thing it is.

Well, i've been skipping school for days until the last day of school, i'm still absent.

Ahaha, whatever. Went and watched real steel with Adrian that day.

Not a bad day anyway, i still enjoy the time i have with my friends.

Although is just two of us, i'm not bored :)

The movie was awesome but i think if the sound system could be a little bit louder,

it will be just perfect. Not 'chi gek' enough, haha !

I've nothing much to say.

I'll just end it here, loves people ! :)

[p/s : my effort is not a waste, hiak hiak ! I'm quite happy with my result. :) ]

2011-11-06T23:23:00.002+08:00

While the sun shine over me

a smile is what you will see

Think back of my end year examination

i think there's more improvement than drops but well

as always, that few subjects, i must really

go work with it before

it get tougher for me. Just hope things get

easier for me every time i tend to make and afford for it

Just see during the next exam

who knows it will be better than what i expected ?

Basically, went out with yii again to Mid.

Get things done and hang out around

gardens until Nelson came and meet us for dinner

Nothing much but i really enjoy of having

fun time laughing with her like crazy

during tea time.

To be more accurate, we laugh more than

half hour continuously.

No harm laughing right ?
:D

Alright, i'm tired.

Gotta catch up with my lovely bed now

Loves ♥

2011-10-30T15:24:00.002+08:00

celebrated the tripled birthday at the wheels.
But i think last year one rocks better than this years, anyway is still their

big day , right ? :)

Went music zone with the Ah pin and ah hui before the dinner.

Enjoy a lot, emo song ;) haha !

My second family :)

They never fail to make me laugh everytime i'm down

Although sometimes they can be very irritating

but they will always be the lovely ones

in my heart.

I hearts them more than anything i do

I couldn't imagine if i lose anyone of them one day

They just meant a lot to me

Without them, i wouldn't be as strong as now

Without them, i wouldn't understand what friendships are

Without them, i couldn't be as happy as now

Is all because of them

Thank you to everyone of you

hearts all of you a lot ♥

2011-10-30T15:04:00.002+08:00

Oh well
another day out with yii yii , hehe !
Went to Midvalley for lunch and bought something home

I look pale dont i ?
Went and see doctor before that and doc say

i will be alright, haha !
which doc don't say that ? funny.
The doctor is a bit abnormal to me, haha !

He laughed like he just got stroke and the pitch is

getting higher and higher, haha !

Another thing is, i really got pissed off with

my memory cards.

phone and camera, unexpected one.

i've lost all the pictures again and again.

GDI

just hope the Mr.pro sir can help me

with it, haha!
but i think i better not put so much hope on it as

i know it won't help already

sigh.

Let's go for more post

loves

2011-10-26T15:10:00.004+08:00

Headache for a few days and luckily today i felt better :)
HAPPY DEEPAVALI EVERYONE especially to my honey bee , hehe !
She said she will put stones in the muruku later for me, break my braces. Ahaha !
love her lots

Went Viva Home with parents and sister for a walk since we've never been there.
Took some pictures there.
Capturing every part of my life, memories of mine :)

end of the day ;)

2011-10-26T14:33:00.002+08:00

Another day to Pavillion.
Went around Times Square, Pavillion and Sungei Wang since we both have

nothing much to do. I really enjoy spending time with all my loves one :)

Went Charles and Keith to buy a superb bag, haha !
I rate the bag the best looking beg in the shop, haha !

One sad thing over here is i've not recovered yet since my exam started, around 3 weeks
ago. Haihs. Whats happening man ?
I remember i read a horoscope thingy and it said that the first half year i will be alright

but sickness will haunt me like continuously for another half year ? Argh, is the time maybe ?
Mummy said , she gonna bring me to skin specialist for a check up since dots dots are all
coming out from my face and it really look awful.
Sigh, please leave me. Love you no more sickness :)

PICTURE OF THE DAY :)

There's difference between letting go and giving up ;)

♥ loves

2011-10-23T15:35:00.004+08:00

Another awesome day with my prs members in school
It was another memorable day.
Appreciate all the hardwork especially the form 4s'

GREAT JOB ! :)
Let me picture do the talking.
For more, check it out at my facebook :)

I have no ideas why am i feeling so down this few days.

Maybe because i'm sick ?
Since the exam starts till now, im still sick. GDI ! ):

Let it be.
Stay tunes :)

pizza :)

2011-10-23T14:07:00.005+08:00

What basically i wanna talk about today is the outing on friday to pizza hut.
Not special but its really meaningful to me :)
Text books were all returned to the school and it means it doesn't matter anymore
whether you attend to school or not , haha !

Went to Pizza hut around 10 something during school hours, what a nice day.
Since we have nothing much to do in school. Well, why not ?
Participating for the magazine competition thing can get pizza, not bad lar :)

Nicholas joined us. So, let the picture do talking.
As always right ? :)

Seriously, Nicholas is crazy.
He is just de awesoome to make us laugh like hell for the whole time.
His muscles is like ohhh my gwaat ! Ahaha ! :D

End here :)

2011-10-15T16:19:00.004+08:00

Celebrated Abel's birthday last week, last minute of saying YES, am going.
Well, since everyone will have the same feeling of hoping someone will celebrate their birthday
for them and if it doesn't , its only disappointment.
So, we decided to go for it though exam is on ;)

what to do, friends marh, haha !

group picture :)
so little people

my three good friend ♥

2011-10-15T15:26:00.006+08:00

Let's talk about the dinner few weeks back.

Went to a ballroom dinner in Sunway with mum, sis and parent's friends for
the Chee Wen primary school charity dinner and i rate it awesome i guess.
Well, is a brand new experience though.
Let the picture do the talking :)

EXAM seriously KILLING ME !
SIGH TO THE MAX

Few more days to go, please me good to me
just once, please ):

2011-09-24T23:29:00.005+08:00

Finally finally & finally , i get to watch Nasi Lemak 2.0 :D

Kind of happy , ahaha !

Went Mid with Eunee and other 2 for the movie and not long after the movie start,

one of them in the movie said something about french fries and burger and there is

when i look at AS and laughed, haha ! Because so ngam he bought MCD into cinema

as his lunch, haha ! *skip skip*

Finally finally & finally , i get to watch Nasi Lemak 2.0 :D
Kind of happy , ahaha !
Went Mid with Eunee and other 2 for the movie and not long after the movie start,
one of them in the movie said something about french fries and burger and there is

when i look at AS and laughed, haha ! Because so ngam he bought MCD into cinema

as his lunch, haha ! *skip skip*

Just a random post, blaaa !
Gotta get started with my studies from tomorrow onward, i wish i could get what i

expected this time by not failing any one of it. Argh, sigh for my previous exam.

I not gonna let any more distraction to break my study mood this time :)
2 weeks holiday, I'll be using you wisely, ngek ngek ! :D

Loves, stay tunes :)

2011-09-23T15:10:00.003+08:00

Frog dissection was awful, puke blood !
From the beginning when they start taking out those frogs, it was disgusting as they were

trying to escape from us because we drop some chloroform into it and because of this

many of us ran out from the lab, hahaha !
It is nice to cut a frog and explore whatever inside it but sometimes i feel, we're really

cruel. Some of them can just take it as a BIG REAL JOKE !
I don't understand why but thanks god, i'm not like them.

May those frogs rest in peace, especially Leon and Chee weng's frog.
Poor froggies ):

Me cutting the skin ;D

Some idiot tear it into parts !
Damn disgusting !
PUKE !

Alright, am lazy to upload those photo again
If you wanna see more, look into my facebook album :)

Time to go for a study now, loves bloggie ♥

2011-09-23T14:08:00.008+08:00

While i'm sick at home, just let me blog something about last Saturday :)

Another sick look ):

sakae sushi :)

Bought the dress that keyii wearing
for mum :D
I'm happy that

she ♥ it

Watch this movie with AS that day while keyii and Terence went for
Jonny English :)

3/4 of 10 hours outing, i kept laughing.
No idea why but thats me

My mummy with the dress

i bought for her as

birthday pressie ♥

2011-09-09T14:02:00.002+08:00

Is all my fault that i have make this mistakes.

I have no courage to face it anymore but yet i will keep on moving with it till

i get the problem solve. I know i'm trying to lie to myself but yet it is a half true side of it.

Young Jia Jie, Dooooooooon't be stupid !

This world is too wide and too scary for us to understand.

If i can choose, i will choose not to know this world :)

Random much blogging at this time, whatsoever.

Finally, i'm sick again X.X

Doc : ohh well... you're having gastric, stomach cramp and there's a lot of wind.
me : uhh ? stomach cramp ? @@'' *chao gan*

Basically first time, my stomach got cramp and i have no idea why.

Leave it , it will recover soon i guess.

As usual, MC for today :)

Another thing here,

exam will start on the september ? GDI !
why must you guys change it earlier rather than later ? ohh man ! aiks

i guess, i just have to start studying now.

good luck to myself ♥

2011-08-29T08:04:00.003+08:00

It was a beautiful day until we receive a call and said he's in comma state.

From that second, i couldn't see the beauty of the day anymore.

Tears rolling down non stop like a fountain. All i can see and feel was sadness and worry-ness.

You know i do care, you know i love you.

I just don't wanna let your hand go.

I know you can feel my touch on your hand and my tears on your palm but yet i have

no more chance.

When i look on you and think about the past, my tears roll down again.

I miss those time when i'm pushing you on wheel chair, walking from place to place hunting

for sweets. I miss you voices which i could never listen again. I miss the smile on your face

but i know i could never ever see it again.

A night before, i cry like what i feel 2 months ago, praying to god and asking him to give

you a longer time. I whisper to myself that i must pray hard to make miracle happen on you.

More or least, i wish you could wake up and tell grandma that you love her.

Let her know, even if you go, you still love her.

YES, IT DID HAPPEN & I DREAMT ABOUT IT !

But, the time was so short when you're awake. I'm happy that you did wake up and hold

grandma's hand tightly. She told me that she was happy at the moment but she didn't know

you will leave her so fast.

This is my first time facing all this, my first time looking at someone i love who go just like this.

I know you suffered a lot and is time for you to rest but yet my heart couldn't let it go.

Grandpa, I promise you, i will take good care of grandma and accompany her

whenever i can. Now, go where you should go and may you have a better life

in the other world grandpa. We always love you.

I wish you will come into my dream again.

The next time you come, please let me know how are you there

Grandpa, i always love you & i will never forget my sweet memories with you ♥

26.08.2011

2011-08-27T15:51:00.008+08:00

Oh yea ! Well, i started my holiday yesterday and went out to Times Square with Li yueng and Adrian. Basically what we did was, shop, walk and chill around there. Unfortunately, Li yueng

didnt join me and Adrian for movie, maybe next time ? Hehe.
We watched Zoo Keeper :D

Accompanied them for breakfast at Kim Gary

before the movie and shopping ;)

As i told them, i will be simple for the day yet i did and also the simplest one among them.

Ahahaha ! Who cares right ? As long as i'm happy with it :)

Starbucks section :D

Those effect photo is all in facebook.

So, check it there if you wanna see it ;)

Bought a new cover for my bb, ngek ngek ! :D

Booohoo ;D
Its pink !

Till here now ♥

under pressure ):

2011-08-14T22:05:00.006+08:00

I can see pressure in your eyes mummy, i feel it.

I know how you feel grandpa, i understand it.

The only thing i couldn't understand is my own feeling.

Grandpa is just acting like a small kid and just couldn't listen to us.

I visited him a few times in the hosp though myself are not feeling well, i kept quiet.

I don't wanna add pressure for my parents.

Whenever i listen to those aunty complaining about how stubborn you are and

your expression on your face that show us how much it hurts you, i could understand it.

I just couldn't believe that i can cry that easily now days.

Well, i guess it is because i understand all the hurts feelings and i'm not cold blooded.

Get well soon grandpa ♥

2011-08-14T21:38:00.006+08:00

27th July 2011

Is a super late update on Aaron's birthday, please excuse me as there's tons of stuff for me

to settle with.

It was my school Koperasi Day as well. Let the picture do the talking, im lazy :)

Thanks to Adrian's dad who fetch me home also :)

[ p/s : I almost got bang by a lorry today, god bless me lucky i'm still alive ]

Spatans birthday ♥

2011-07-23T09:29:00.010+08:00

Actually and basically, we celebrated Aaron's early birthday today.

Planned a surprise party for him and it turns up with a lot of fun.

A few of us actually went to the supermarket again to buy some ingredient for the

muffins. We decided not to bake cake this time, so muffins are our choice.

Poppy seeds, yump yump :)

I'm sooo tired and actually lazy to go and buy stuff but what to do my friend birthday

wor, haha ! Went back to Li Yueng's house and not long after, we started our work.

Jokes and laughters are all around the kitchen, lovin' it. ♥ Felt so warm to be around them.

Here's some picture. Let the picture do the story. :)

Purple theme
(excuse some of them)

group pic :)

cam whore 1

cam whore 2

he use the phone like his

house phone -.-

makan time :)

fatt hao-ing

mixed mixed :)

acting pro :D

the two most 'helpful person'

*puke* haha !

fighting cream, failed :(

*some is with wasabi, haha*

Those that did not help get the best muffin ever in their life.

muffin with chili padi, belacan, garlic, soy sauce, chili sauce. ahhaha ! :D

happy eating *smirk*

Next wed, is a free school day.

Might have another celebration, wait for more :)

♥

♥ our love

2011-07-15T14:03:00.003+08:00

Do you still remember this ?

You said you want to make a better one for me this year. I wish i can still see it :(

今天是我们分手的第16天。我仍然很想念你 ):

我希望你知道我对你是真的

你还记得我们第一次出借的时候吗？

我们两个都很紧张。我们一直的想当我们见面该说些什么。我们的心不停的跳。那时候我们感觉到只是幸福. 不过现在什么都变了. 什么幸福都没有了. 我很怀念我们在一起的日子。

Our memories always stay in my heart. ♥

It never fade away because i will always keep it lock

in my heart. Do you remember that you said, you threw your heart key away just to lock all the memories in you ? How i wish it was true, my love.

This 9 months of memories ain't easy to achieve and it really meant a lot to me. More than anything on this earth. How i wish nothing went wrong and you're still with me. I never thought of all this

things will happen to me, never before. As i said, my feeling towards you is a long lasting one. Although i don't believe in forever but i trust lasting. Its really depends on the couple, how they

think and how they keep themselves loving each other.

As days passes, the longer i be with you, the more i love you.

I will never ask for more but your love. I wish miracle would happen one day, as soon as possible because i don't wanna be alone again.

For every mistakes we do and for every regrets we feel, we have to put in triple afford to get back someone's heart. Its not easy but at least we try because if we never give up, things would happen the way we wanted it to be.

徐嘉宏，我还是很爱你！♥

2011-07-08T16:12:00.007+08:00

If you lose once it means you lose everything.

Hymp, just wanna keep my blog alive and since i have nothing much to do now.

Alright, a few week back i went sunway for another theater show.

This time was, magical musical but i prefer peter pan more, haha !

I didn't took much picture actually but i will just update some :)

Nothing much, taada ;)

2011-07-05T15:01:00.005+08:00

没人照顾了 !

My heart hurt a lot, no matter how much i cry, i hate and i dislike also, i have no choice to

accept the fact that had happen. When a person change, everything changes.

No one to be blame but i just hate this. When a person's heart is no longer here, no matter

what they do also fake.

I never feel you care again.

Last time when i'm not happy, i talked to you. Right after i shared everything with you,

my heart smile again but not anymore. No matter how many people or how many times

i share out all my feelings, i still feel the same because they are not you and the wound in

my heart is getting worse and worse. Is not easy for me to go through all this, i keep

my words for our love but it seems like it don't mean anything anymore.

If you ever saw this and you dislike this. You may just close this page as i'm writing this

not because i want to show you how pity i am but is just that i have no where to release nor

to share all my feelings but here. This is my only place. No one could understand how i feel and i could never understand how you think.

People always learn from regrets not mistake and i'm strongly against to those people.

Why cant they just think a bit further before doing mistakes ?

Everyone is given chance to be forgive but sometimes things are not mean to be forgive.

I don't want to have sleepless night again.

I don't want to shed my tears again.

I don't want to face all this obstacles anymore.

I don't want to speak anything about this again.

I don't want to face all my friends who ask about this again.

I don't want to face reality.

No matter how long i lasted my smile everyday, my heart is not smiling.

I still feel you in my heart very strongly as i could not believe that we're now apart.

Not listening to your voice so many days is just giving me nightmare everyday.

I have no one to share all my ups and down in my life anymore.

Why do things turn up side down ?

I just feel it is all because our heart.

Hear no one, trust no one but yourself.

If we ever do what it means in the sentence then we will not be making mistakes in

our life because you never know a person's intention of betraying you.

I just wish i could go back to the past when im with you.

I just miss you so badly ):

Our love lasted for 293 days, i wish i could pass with you on the first year anniversary

but i know it won't happen anymore D:

2011-05-26T20:33:00.007+08:00

I realised that we will be stressful not only during exam but also when there is tons of stuff

for us to settle with. Yay, i'm happy that my holiday starts tomorrow but i dont think it

will be a holiday for me. sad case. i'm so tired of all those stuff i have to settle with.

Seriously, i dont have enough sleep ! D:

Exam finished on Tuesday and everyone is like counting down for the last 10 seconds till

the paper is collected. Wooooohooo ! Everyone cheered loudly, exam is over and its FINALLY !

Exam ended and now it means we have to do preparation for out results. Mid term exam aint

easy for me though, anyway, i have tried my best. I hope. Got and heard about some of my

results today, not bad. I'm quite satisfied with it :D

Alright, skipped cheer today.

Went and do community service with my bunch of 'retarded' friends, haha !

Oh yeaaa, i got the pictures. Just have a look and you will know.

Im lazy to talk right now as my eye is closing. ohhh ! just to keep my bloggie alive :D

i have lots to think but it always includes you ♥

I'm learning while i grow.

2011-05-20T23:29:00.003+08:00

Form 4's life ain't easy for me. Everything seems to be upside down compared to the previous year. When i was in form 3, i felt nothing much but just enjoying being a teen but not anymore in form 4. People always say, as you grow you get more stress, i didnt believe at this before but now yes, i do believe. I felt so pressure especially during this exam weeks, i'm going nuts. I'm tired of this sake and i know i'm in the wrong class. I've regretted for what decision i have made seriously and i know there is no more turning back. I do enjoy a lot during chemistry class and sometimes for the other two science subject. All i can do now is to give myself more moral support and make myself mentally work harder for it. I hope i could do it.

I've the feeling of giving up already and its just the mid-term exam, how am i going to survive till the end of my school life in high school ? I don't seem stress but i'm inside, i need support.

Sometimes is not because i don't want to study, i'm really getting tired of it. I have lose my interest easily now days and i just want myself to be in a peaceful place with songs playing around and a calm mind to handle all this stuff and i have just came across an article in the net, just a few minutes before i'm blogging and its about stress and i think some of it is just happening to me, right now. I forgotten all my add maths, physics, bio and everything.

Here's the part of it :

One of the most important things for parents to do is to be aware of the stress their children are under, and also the risks their teens face because of the stress. Moodiness, lethargy, forgetfulness, isolation, antisocial behavior, lying, difficulty concentrating, lack of sleep, headaches and stomach aches can all be signs of stress.

That's my sign of stress, whats your's then ? D:

Alright, i just gonna end this post here.

[p/s: I just need support from all my love ones ❤ ]

I hope everyone can cope with my emotion and i will try to get control of it (:

Best of luck people, loves ❤

2011-05-01T15:22:00.006+08:00

Daaang daaaaaang daanng daaaaaaang ! :D

Hoooon hoooon hoooon ! Someone's wedding ! Ohoho !

Congratulation to the couple, hooray ! Great ! :D

Well, i actually attended a wedding dinner last week and it was my mum's cousin

big day and i think i only seen him for a few time( not include young time ).

Ignore my look in all those pictures below especially how i wear. LOL !

I know its random enough. End up, i simply pick a dress and a tight to wear so excuse me.

Ngeeek ! Let me just tell you, i'm jealous when my cousin brought his girlfriend to the

wedding. Aww, i wish i could follow him to his family member's wedding but must make

sure, i'm slim by the time. Ahahaha ! I wanna look pretty :D

Crapping a lot. Booohoo !

Enjoy the pictures :D

2011-05-01T14:12:00.005+08:00

Ello ello, i know i missed out a lot of post.

Let me get back to 6th of April. We actually celebrated Tse Ann's birthday.

I were in the same class with her since form 1. I think she's cute enough for me

to laugh at every single time she sleeps in class.

She looked super cute, wanna bet ? haha !

She's just so simple that everyone will like the way she is.

We celebrated her birthday at canteen that day and on her big day, Mr.Li, our chemist teacher

did an experiment and it was aweeeeesome ! ahaha !

She got so many explosion before we actually sang birthday song to her.

If you're around the school, you will definitely listen to those biiiing and boooom. haha ! :D

Let's see the pictures :)

p/s : Class teacher gave her a lolipop and spend us drink :D

what a great teacher. ahahhaa ! :P

2011-04-25T16:06:00.001+08:00

I've been clicking from blogs to blogs and i found this.

Its meaningful and its for you.

My love,

有位心理学家曾写道，一个成熟称得上真爱的恋情必须经过四个阶段，

那就是：共存　反依赖　独立　共生之间转换所需的时间不一定，因人而易。　

第一个阶段：共存。

这是热恋时期，不论何时何地总希望能腻在一起。 　　

第二个阶段：反依赖。

等情感稳定，一方想多一点时间做自己想做的事，这时另一方就会感到被冷落。 　

第三个阶段：独立。

这是第二个阶段的延续，要求更多独立自主的时间。 　

第四个阶段：共生。这时新的相处之道成形，你们已经成为最亲密的人。

你们在一起相互扶持、一起开创属于你们人生。你们在一起不会互相牵绊，而会互相成长。

他（她）就像是你的亲人。

但是，好多人都通不过第二或第三阶段，选择分手。　　

其实很多事只要好好沟通就会没事，可是想太多和任性就是无法避免。　　

世界上遇到唯一的你多么不容易，能不能不要轻言放弃。

你发现了吗？你们本没有相同之处，外表不相像，性格也是南辕北辙，但是相爱然后在一起，日复一日，年复一年，你会惊讶你的眼睛竟有点像他的眼睛。

他的微笑竟也有点像你的微笑。

你们走路的步伐变得相似。你们说话的语气也愈来愈像。

你们爱喝同一杯饮料。你们的口头禅变得一样。你们总能猜到对方下一句话是什么。

原来我们会变成我们所爱的人。　　

你在不知不觉中让他改掉了他爱皱眉的坏习惯。

这个改变，或许连他自己也不曾察觉。　　

他在不知不觉中让你变得做事不再马马虎虎。你差点认不出自己。会在不知不觉中逐渐变成对方理想中的人，这种改变，绝对不是刻意的。

两个人相处时间越久，气质也越相近，有一天，你惊讶地发现，这样的你们多么默契。

或许再也遇不到这样的感情。

深深爱着一个人的时候，你原来真的会一点一点失去自己，可是为什么你还会觉得快乐呢。

大概是因为你在失去的同时，也赚了，你把他的气质和他的微笑都赚回来了。朋友，你们走到哪个阶段了？

世界上遇到唯一的你多么不容易，能不能不要轻言放弃。能不能一直走下去。请不要说下辈子，我多怕下辈子再遇不到你。所以就这辈子，就让我们一直在一起走下去。

2011-04-23T10:43:00.002+08:00

As you all always know i enjoy my time when i'm with him.

I appreciate him a lot, really. He made me learnt a lot. He made me strong.

Without him, i'm sure that i will drop my tears every single time when i'm down but with

him, he brightens everything for me and keep my tears back. Even if i cry, i will cry on

his shoulder. He might not be everything to me but he is always the special one for me :)

Liking him is what i did.

Loving him is what i want myself to do.

Be with him is what all i ever wanted and now, he is mine :D

It also mean that, i will appreciate him from now on.

From the day i've fall for you, i cherish you.

Loving him, understanding him is not enough. I always tell myself that to know him better,

i need to know everyone around him. By knowing people around him, i can also know

what kind of person he is. I can know the true him and i did.

He is always the one that i expected him to be. He is always the man in my heart :)

I like the way he is and i love the way we are.

That day, i was with most of his friend in a party. I'm happy as i felt happiness everywhere.

With him, everything is possible. Even all of his friends are there, he did not leave me alone.

He still care, accompany and pampered me all the time. First time in my life to have such

memorable day with my love one.

I enjoy the day a lot, cherish every moment when i'm with him :)

Sweet sixteen ♥

2011-04-16T12:29:00.004+08:00

I'm an ordinary who hope, who wish, who wants, who need and who expect for something.

I believe that everyone hope for what they want and it goes the same to me.

I had my sweet sixteen this year and it was a blast. I have thought of the surprise before

but i never know it would really happen to me. I'm glad and touched to have all of you

as my best friend. The word 'best friend' its too wide and to deep to describe and to understand

but now i understand it fully because of you all. Without you guys, nothing would happen

to my birthday. I'm really happy and touched although i did not cry out but trust me, my heart is crying inside. I love you guys so so much :)

To my closest friend ♥

Li yueng, Miing Pin, Adrian, Sukyi, Aaron and Kar Hui.

I'm happy that i'm always in your heart. I'm proud to have a friend like you.

My love for you all never make you understand because its too deep and too meaningful to me.

Thankiew for such lovely and yummy cake. Thankiew for all the laughters and jokes.

Thankiew for all the help and support. Thankiew for all the lovely presents. Thankiew for

all your company and love.

I love you guys very much (:

You guys gained a better place in my heart now. I will not forget all the memories between us.

Really thank you especially for the surprise and videos :)

To my love ♥

Julian Chui.

I'm happy you came in to my life and I'm glad to have you.

Without your wish and love i could not understand what is love and care.

Thankiew for all the presents and cards. Thankiew for all the love and care.

Thankiew for all the laughters and jokes. Thankiew for everything that you have did to me.

Thankiew for all your care and concern. I know you care me a lot especially behind me, you

did a lot. Thank you so much baby. I'm very happy to have you. You make me feel secured.

Love you always.

Again, thank you for your birthday song and the guitar ;)

I felt so touched whenever i listen to it. xie xie ni baobei ♥

Though it look funny but my love for

you is not funny but true

handmake cake :)

sleepy look @@

Them :)

present from him (:

present from all :)

Because of you all, everything happen :)

2011-03-26T16:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes.. sometimes.. sometimes..

I really hope i can have enough of sleep, enough of rest, enough of laughters to

make me a little more happy. I'm exhausted from what i am now.

I wish i could quit cheer and those competition stuff to concentrate more on my studies.

I have not enough time to balance everything.

This is not what i expected and not what i want.

As days passes, my syllabus is getting harder and harder. I need time to understand

and finish all my work. I don't want my work to be undone as the end of it, i'm the one

will suffer from all this. Oh please ! Just give me a break or two.

At least a few days off, i will be happy ):

I know i get pissed off with some of you this few days.

I'm truthfully sorry to you guys.

Please forgive me ? I've no idea either what's wrong with me and im just too tired

with all this stuff going on here and there.

I have mixed feelings. Sorry.

I promise i will recover soon.

Till then, update again :)

2011-03-14T12:16:00.007+08:00

It is believed that on the fourteen of march, it is a white valentine day.

Well, no matter. To me, as long as he is with me, everyday is a valentine day.

People might say, 'ohh please, you're too young to understand the meaning of love'.

Oh let me reply this, ' well, we're young. so what ? it doesn't mean that we don't understand

anything about love'. The topic of dating and falling in love are hot among the parents.

Everyone have feelings and that includes me and you. Feelings are hard to control, just like

the anger in us. The difference between anger and love feelings is that one is gentle and one

is violence. Thats all. I could not understand why people just can't be a little bit more open

minded ? I don't blame them if they are following the traditions or their culture. For my personal opinion, i think that falling in love at this age is normal but its all depends on the individual how they think about it.

What i think about love is, it actually make me learn from mistakes and make me think

more maturely. But of course, we have to be strong in mind to stand up again once we

are hurt by someone. Falling in love with you, i have no fear but the only thing i'm afraid is

losing you once again. No one could understand the feeling of being dump when she/he

is important in our heart.

I always try my best to give you whatever i can. There is always a limit for everything.

You know i will do it, dont you ?

Let me just share you guys something :)

I did not know am i doing the right thing or not but all i want is to see him happy.

It took me lot of afford to make this happen, many thing to do, to care and to worry.

I don't mind doing this for you especially appearing infront of you because i love you.

Honestly, i didn't know that i can really do it. All i want is to see you smile again.

As i said, after every sad thing, you will sure be happy.

Its just because i want you to be happy, im willing to do everything for you.

I didnt want to see you cry nor see you down and when i know i can do something

to cheer you up, im sure i will do it. I didnt expect that i could do it but at last i

did it because i did not give up trying and finding way to make it happen.

People might say, 'what you did to him, its suppose to be a guy's job.'

I dont care what people say or think about us but as long as i did make you happy.

You're my first boyfriend that care me most.

You're my first boyfriend who i be with most long.

You're my first boyfriend who i bake and make food for.

You're my first boyfriend who got such surprises.

You're my first boyfriend i care the most :)

I LOVE YOU !

It was raining on that afternoon and im praying so that it will stop by 4.

But at 4 it started to rain again but luckily it stop again after half an hour. My heart beats fast

until i met him again. Im happy that i did it. I know i can do it better, perhaps another day ?

Since, my sushi cacat-ed and i have plenty of time while waiting for him to finish

his tuition. I went and bake muffins. I think muffin is a better choice since he is going for

flight the next morning and it can be his breakfast. I felt happiness for baking it to him.

Bake the chocolate muffins without recipe. Ahahaha ! Not first time baking without recipe.

So its exactly like,ahoot whatever it is in my mind. Ahaha ! But i bake it with my heart.

I actually changed the plan again and it became not that surprise. Oh man !

Basically i was on called with him while im at downstairs asking him to come down as if he

might see me ? our conversation go something like this :)

me : 下来.. 下来打球.

him : 你在哪里？

me : 在球场啦..你看不到我在那里？

him : 说真的啦..

me : 真的啦. 我在球场. 下来.. 你下来先.

him : 我没看见你在篮球场的 ? 说真的

me : 真的啦.. 你再不下来, 你的老婆会被拐带啊.

him : 现在我下这来.

me : 你骗我啊 ? 不可能你拉家里的电话下来的hor ?

him : 哈哈. 真的要我下去 ?

me : 不然 ? 快点啦..

him : okay. 我用手提call 你.

--- next ---

him : 你在哪里？

me : 在篮球场附近啦. 你在哪里？

him : *shout 杨佳其 * 你在哪里?

me : (look out from the place i hiding) yay ! 我看见你了。直直走. 呵呵

him : once he reached me. (very caring de ask) 你怎样来的?

me : 飞来的. 哈哈

him : 说真的. 你怎样来?

me : ______ 载我来的啦.

[p/s : its just a part of it] ahaha !

From the starting of the convo till the end of it, we kept laughing non stop, i miss it :(

Here's some picture :D

His shirt that hug when i sleep, haha !

I know i sounds like a baby :)

the card :)

the everything :)

Notes that remind him what to bring

;)

♥ i just lovee you ! :)

2011-02-26T17:25:00.002+08:00

Aye, i admit i'm lazy. Ahaha !

I will try to keep myself hardworking blogging for you all. Don't complain jor la, haha !

Random post again people. Just excuse me :)

Merentas Desa today and we are suppose to run 5km for form 4 girls but

i think i only run 3km overall ? haha ! walk for the other 2km.

Aheem, although i didn't win in the top 25, who cares. Most important is i won in my friendship.

I have a better friendship that you okay ? I know you have many member in your 'gang' but

what's the point of having so many members when you all don't even cooperate or

appreciate each other ?

This is my first time in race with my good friend. Ahaha !

Let me tell you what basically we did during the race.

Before race : I sing lik no body business.

Starting of the race : keep talking :D haha

During the race : Planting tomato on my face. Ahaha ! So damn freaking hot.

Run a few meter then stop to walk and talk. I have no energy to run but

i have energy to sing, don't know why. == LOL

I kept singing while running and those people who heard me look at me in a

weird expression. Guess what i did ? I smile back and continue singing. HAHA !

What a great sakai i am today ;)

I'm proud of myself and i'm happy with who i am. So, dont judge me and mind your own

business.

Random post, ends :)

2011-02-17T17:24:00.004+08:00

OH YEAH !

My sis is eleven, finally ! :D

hahaha. This is just a random post actually. Sharing it to you about what actually

happen on that night :)

You saw the cake ? My aunty bake it, so sweeeeet ! :D

surprising enough to receive that as birthday cake.

As i said i will update my blog after valentine and i will :)

2011-02-16T18:09:00.002+08:00

Found this in facebook.

Share it here with all of you especially to you.

Sometimes, i angry because i care and i think things can be better :)

No matter how, i still love you !

My love is for you. Don't break my heart and i wont :)

Our promise our love ♥

永远不会发脾气的女人就如同一杯白开水-解渴，却无味。

你迟到，她向你发脾气，是因为她紧张你，她怕你出了什么意外。

你抽烟，她向你发脾气，是因为她担心你的身体健康。

你喝酒，她向你发脾气，是因为她担心你酒醉后没有人照顾，感觉到孤单，

更怕你在酒吧会出

么事，留下她一个人，她希望跟你长长久久，白头到老。

你身上被发现有别的女人香，她向你发脾气，是因为她在乎你，你是她的所有，

她不想跟别人分亨你。

你臭袜子乱扔，她向你发脾气，是因为她关心你，

她怕有一天你会被自己的臭袜子淹没，所以她要先把你训练好。

你忘记她的生日，她向你发脾气，是因为她对你有所期待，

她并不会要求一个陌生人记住她的日。

女人是最讲理的动物，她的脾气往往导因于各式各样的理由。

女人也是最不讲理的动物，她的理由经常令人无法理解。

女人可以为了一件小得不能再小的事，发一场大得不能再大的脾气。

因为女人对身边的男人有所要求，有所期望，所以常常会失望；失落。

因此，女人容易对男人发脾气。

身边有个会向你发脾气的女人，其实是一件多么幸福的事！

而身边有一个会让自己发脾气的男人，是对女人最大的折磨，也是莫大的幸福。

珍惜你身边那个爱生气的女人，因为会发脾气的女人最可爱了~

假如有一天，她不在为你生气。。。。

留下的只有漆黑的房间，慌乱的心跳，述说着心灵深处的痛楚。那寂寞的思念，那暗淡的惆怅，还有那幸福的幻觉，独自呓语！

2011-02-14T15:31:00.005+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY ! ♥

This is my first time having boyfriend during Valentine Day.

You're the first who passed it with me. As i said, Valentine Day is a special day to all

couples. There is only two possibilities that couples will think during this day.

Is either about the pass or about the memories you both have.

For me, I'm absolutely thinking and missing every moment when i'm with you.

You're the first who passed it with me. You're also the first who went through a lot of obstacles with me. You're also the one who are there for me when i needed you. You're the one who created many chapters of sweet memories between you and me. You're the one who i love the most. You're the one who i care the most. You're also the one that i couple most long with. You're also the one who i wished to see you everyday. You're also the one who i relay on. You're the one who i couldn't lose. You're the one who i wanted most. You're the one who make me miss you more. You're the one who melted my heart since day one, i am with you. You're also the guy who make me cry for you the most.

Crying over you doesn't meant it must be a bad thing. I cry for you because i'm worry.

I think of you every single day. I miss you all the time. I love you every second of my life.

Trust me, i really do love you !

Can you imagine how pain it would be if we ever lose someone we really love ?

That is my feeling towards you. I'm afraid that one day you will leave me.

The word 'break up' i will not use between us because i know i will regret if i ever say it to you.

Things always come to an end when people behave 'chu dong'. To me, whenever i'm angry or sad, i keep my feelings. I dont wish to say any harsh words to you because i'm scared i will speak wrongly. Do you all ever realised that, no matter how angry we're at the moment but we will still be happy after a day or two? This thought me that, i should always stay calm.

I hope you think the same way as i am.

Is the fifth month we're together.

There are sadness and happiness in this love. I'm happy with i have especially having you.

Its not easy to make it to this point. I hope my love for you is also a 'forever love'.

Let us make and afford to hold this love babey, i love you ! :)

I'm happy to receive your pressie too ! Miss the moment we have.

My pressie ;)

The bottle i gave him :)

I did not regret of knowing you but i regret why i did not know you earlier ? ;)

I love you my baby ! ♥

2011-01-27T16:48:00.005+08:00

I'm feeling so much like a retarded teenage girl who came out from no where. Ahaha !

I always want to be an ordinary girl who care and love everyone around me especially

all the special one. I'm feeling like a teen who enjoy all her days with her buddies and challenge

everything that comes to her and who loves exploring the out side world.

No matter how, i will just be me :)

The one and only me, no others in this world will be as original as i am ;D

So Don't Fake Around because you will never success being the other me.

I'm crapping a lot, its okay right ? haha ! Just let me do so, please ? heehe

Actually and basically, Li yueng, sukyi and me finished our first moral project.

Essay and pictures. Next topic, chinese new year ! Ohoho ! :D

I wanna meet him so badly. I wanna use the one week of holiday to go out with him.

It have some time since i have seen him. Wonder if he gain weight or lose weight.

Aww, of course i hope he get fatter, haha !

Let me show you guys some pictures we took for the gotong-royong.

In the picture, we're just acting. Ngaaaaa, but we did clean some of the rubbish. haha !

Say thanks to us for saving the earth people ! :D

2011-01-20T09:07:00.004+08:00

I'm just going to update a super random post which make no sense. Ahaha !

A few weeks ago, i actually went out with my bunch good friends after school to celebrate

one of their birthday at snowflakes. I guess many of you will know about it as it is

quite famous, i guess ? HAHA. *ignore* I'm crapping right now, please excuse me.

Took a few pics there, nothing nice nor special but just simple and random.

I know is random enough for me to speak like this but its okay right ? ahhaha

I gonna shop till i drop :D

i'm just joking ! ahahaha ! Off to meet sukyi now :)

byeee readers !

2011-01-08T18:56:00.002+08:00

To keep my blog alive, i will just post a random one.

I have been doing all my homework since morning and yet i didnt do much because

_____ you know i know. Ahahaha ! We end up slacking around and hunting for food.

Form four life ain't easy but i'm working hard for it.

I will study hard from now and not to be lazy anymore. For my studies and future :D

I will also take care of myself as i have promised to you. I'm sure i can do it :)

Let's do it together babey ! ♥

Random pic about my essays

stack of books on my bed x)

2011-01-05T17:28:00.006+08:00

Third day in school and i'm feeling like i just got cursing by some sleeping spell. ahahahha !

I sleep non stop i guess ? I have time i sleep and for now i prefer sleeping than talking.

Is like a miracle happening. aahahaha !

But honestly, i did not sleep well. If you know how my class people/dinasours act then you

will know why i am not sleeping well. Aahaha ! I think you get what i mean, right ? (:

I wake every single time when those human shout or laugh loudly.

Oh great ! I love this class so much, those humour but not when i'm sleeping. Aahhaaha !

But its alright, i'm fine with it (: Hehe

Nothing much to say but just let me complain something here.

I dislike dislike dislike the school time anymore, arrrgh !

Finish school at 2.30pm every single day besides Friday ? Only one day and i'm not enough

with it. Eeesh ): Not only that ! What even worse is i'm going back home at 4pm on Tuesday

because of the sport's house practise. It will kill me soon ! Sigh.

But i think i gonna skip it for a few days after that, ahahaha ! I hope i can (:

I have tons of thing to complain about. ahahaha !

Even now i finish school at the usual time but yet i still have to wait about an hour

for the transport. Waaadahek ! ):

Its so hot and i'm sweating all over the place and even if i wait in the Esso, its not a

good thing though. I'm bored inside. Oh my !

Anyway, just ignore it because i never satisfied with it. ahaha !

There are many things going on in the new year but i'm lazy to post it out.

Aahaha ! I'm so sorry but i will post it some other time and when i feel like typing

it and when i'm not lazy. Hehe !

Just let me simply tell you one of my class today.

One of the counselor teacher came in for relief and we discuss about

'how to choose a gf/bf?' ahahha ! interesting ?

Kinda excited with it, we laugh all the way from the start to the end.

She asked us opinion on what type of partner do we want to have in the future.

Well, she separates us into two. The boys and the girls. Conclusion is the girls are more

matured. Ahahahha ! I will just list down what the guys and the girls said :)

Boys : Pretty, intelligent, big/shiny eyes, neat appearance, nice body shape, good hearted,

sweet voice and many more about appearance.

Girls : Tall, caring, good leadership quality, not racist, open minded, personality, understanding,

No smell odour and many more.

That's our opinion and can you see the difference ? ( I bet you did unless you're ______ )

Aahhaha ! Fill in yourself :)

The teacher actually touched my hand which i put on the table and say good when i

answered her ( one of the point from the list ) :D

She not only did that but also touched my head and say good answer/girl or something. I forgotten what she said already because i'm busy touching with my hair ahahahha ! :D

I guess thats all for now ! Will update soon (:

2010-12-31T13:16:00.004+08:00

A few more hours to go and we'll be in the New Year !

I wanna welcome 2011 with a big huge hug and repeat this,

''please please please, give me a better year. I just need a happy and simple life''

Please come true :D

I know and i realise that most of my post now a days are very lame but just

excuse me alright ? haha ! Coz i'm dead bored at home but i hope we all get

to rock our beautiful night later. Last day of 2010, a sad thing or a happy one ?

No matters as time still goes on. Last day of 2009 and the last day of this year, i also

get to pass it with you. Although we couldnt meet up but no worries, i'm happy to do

back the usual thing we used to do. On call at 12am tonight. Sharing my moment with

him. Hahahhaaha !

All the best people ! ;D

May all of you get what you all wished to have but remember don't be too greedy. Ahaha !

Never the least, i hope time can prove everything too. Make my life a simple and happy one.

I just need someone who will be there for me when i need them to and be happy all the time.

Thats my little wish for the year :D

Besides that, i also wish that you'll have fun with your friends tonight.

Good luck and all the best for the performance later. I'm praying for you ! :)

If is possible and with no doubts, i'm able to meet you tomorrow. What a great thing ! :D

I hope whatever happens today morning is something that i have thought too much.

Blame me if i get mad or moody over you again and again is all because i need you and

don't wanna lose you again.

Let's put your hands up in the air and shout NEW YEAR :D

Okay ! Now ignore me, ahahhaha ! I'm bored so please excuse me. *laughs*

Take care readers ! Will be back soon :)

2010-12-29T13:23:00.003+08:00

29.12.10

Is the end of December people ! Is time to WAKE UP ! ):

No more sleeping late, waking late, enjoying movies and spending time online.

Ohohoho, what a sad thing. I guess i have to keep myself away from comp during school days

to improve my studies and i hope i can. You know as usual, i'm lazy.

Facebook drive me bored now a days and i have nothing much to do online.

A few more days, i have to say goodbye 2010. It have me a lot of memories.

Sad or happy, i still live as usual. I just hope 2011 is a better year for me. I hope it really be

a better years than all previous year. Oh my ! I just hope i can spend a little more time

with all my loved ones before school reopen. ♥

Lastly, i wanna make a wish for the last 2010.

Time dont rewind but time goes on. I just hope everything goes well next year.

Everything will be easy and simple. I just need a simple and meaningful life.

I want to have a stronger bond with all my friends. No doubts and no arguements.

I want to have a caring, happy, simple and lasting relationship.

I want to have a happy and caring family.

31 Dec 2010,

I'm sorry that i could not countdown with you.

I wish all the best for you. Hope you have fun during your performance.

Hope you enjoy your day and night with all your friends and coach.

Let them rock your night babe :)

I'm sure there is another chance that awaits us for the upcoming countdowns

and other special days. ♥

To be your lover was all i ever dreamed ♥

2010-12-25T14:04:00.003+08:00

24.12.2010

Christmas Eve ! ;D ♥

I will just make it simple, ahaha ! Went out whole day with moon today and met up with

a few friends of mine and my dear at Ming Kit's party.

Hang out together for a couples of hours till 12am. No counting down section but its okay

as long as you're there with me :) ♥

Got my first Christmas pressie from him ! :)

A necklace with a love shape. ahahha !

Thankiew for everything babey. The time you spent on me. The moment you're with me.

Appreciate every single thing you did for me. I love you ♥ ! :)

I'm feeling strongly inlove with him ? Ahahaha !

To be fair, i gave him a little pressie too. Ahahaha ! :D

I just hope he will like it ;)

Bought a love shape glass bottle and folded 99 stars to put in it.

A silly 5 colours thought. Ahahaha ! You know i know ;D

First time celebrate Christmas with my boyfriend, yeaaahooo ! ahahaha ! ♥

Will show you guys those picture when he sent it to me because i forgotten to

take a picture of it before i give to him. ahaha ! ;D

ENJOY YOUR CHRISTMAS PEOPLE ♥ ;D

Well, PMR result dont really go the way i wanted it to be but anyway i still have to

face it with sorts of talks from relatives. I hope i will just get a better result and try

harder in SPM. I'm the one who sit for the exam so dont anyone of you judge me ! :)

I might be the lousy one in you guy's heart but you all will never know how

i feel. So, you better not add anything into the conversation then. Thankiew ! :)

Your cooperation is much appreciated.

2010-12-22T15:29:00.010+08:00

Nothing much just a random update for my blog so that it wont go dead.

Peter Pan, Peter Pan , a wonderland, haha ! ♥

Went Sunway for Peter Pan treater show since there is Free tickets

from dad's friend so i just simply went there and watch it.

Quite nice but its so short. If you pay for the ticket, you will feel that dont worth.

Ahahaha ! Christmas ♥ feel of cause got. Ahahaha ! Soap snow also not bad ;D

Here's some picture how it goes. Enjoy :)

Tomorrow is the dead day of mine.

Before PMR comes, i were wondering my dead day is coming and now its over.

The result coming out tomorrow and i'm repeating the same thing, my dead day is coming ! ;D

aahhaha ! Wish me luck people ! :)

Christmas is on the way, hohohooo ! ♥

Wondering how will my Christmas be this year. I hope it will be better than last year ;D

Ohohoho ! Go and listen to this people : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ds6oTHYmqRc

I think i have something in mind ;D

I wanna find my aunty, uncle, cousin to buy me pressie. Hahahaha ! ;D *smirk*

I hope you will like it babey :)

Ohhh hooor, you will know it someday__________ ♥ :P

2010-12-20T19:20:00.002+08:00

18.12.10 ♥

A day full of laughters, happiness and fun.

Every moment i spent with you guys will always remain in my heart. No where to find

such good friends like you all. No where to get such understanding and good friends like you

all. You all are the one who care me most when i'm upset.

First time being in the concert with both of my good friends from the gang. ♥

Thanks Li Yueng for ajak-ing me to join in if not i would not have a good day there :)

Never the least to my babe ;D

*wink wink* I miss you ! Ahahaha ! First boyfriend who accompany me to concert.

First who was there by my side while watching the firework. Once we walk away, firework

display started. I was shock but happy because i'm with you by the time.

Aww, i love you sweetheart ! :) ♥

Every moment that i spend with you, will be a memory to me and will always

remain in my heart. Lock in my heart and save in my mind :)

Love you dear ♥ ! :)

Let me list down what i want for Christmas. A simple wish that i really hope it

will come true and i will make the others on the New Year ;D aahhaa !

- Hold this love with you and be happy together for a long long time.

- Get good grades in all my coming examination includes PMR ><

- Spend more time on family, friends and you.

- Get to spend more time on things that i like to do.

- Get to enjoy life and know more friends, ahhaa !

- Lose weight and look slim AHAHAHHAHAHHAA ! ;D

continue laughing lar you ! ahahha ! ;D

There is 6 wishes of mine in my 'simple' wish santa :)

Christmas ! Ohhhhh yea, i love christmas people ♥ ! :D

I love the songs, i love the snow and i just so love it. Ahahahha !

Christmas with snow ? AWESOME ! ;D

When santa is visiting me with a pressie ? ahahaha !

I wanna pass it with you babey :)

Let me hunt a pressie for you, muacks ! ♥

2010-12-17T11:48:00.003+08:00

This is when my mood comes, everything goes well ;D

ahahhaa ! I was dead bored yesterday but its okay, i'm used to it. Ahaha !

rotting is what i am now a days. Well, this will be another random post of mine.

Let's see what i did yesterday, haha !

Went and took the photo printer which my mum bought long time ago and which she

said is now broke down. I prove her wrong, haha !

I took it out and try using it, i wish that its still working and there it goes, it's functioning ;D

ahahha ! So, i went and print some of the pictures includes him ;D

ahahhaa ! And its now in my purse. Ohohoho ! Took a few pictures of the process when

i'm cutting all those borders of the picture, ahha ! Let's look at it now :D

Can wait until tomorrow comes :)

2010-12-14T22:42:00.009+08:00

I'm lazy, people say yay ! ahahhaha !

Btw, i'm not proud of it. I wanna enjoy my holidaaaaaaaay arr ! I dont have enough this holiday.

I just wanna spend more time with all my friends and him.

All i wish now is that i could enjoy my last few weeks of holiday before school reopen.

I want to meet him ):

I dont wanna stay at home for next few days, please give me some entertainment people ! D:

Facebook is so quiet, blog is quiet and msn is quiet. Where all those people gone ?!

Save me from this boredness !

Blaaa, i have nothing to talk actually. Ahahahha !

Let me just show you a few pictures of my trip to Indo last week.

Not much pic because i'm lazy AGAIN to upload all those pictures. ahaha ! Excuse me :)

2010-12-11T23:12:00.003+08:00

I've this little feeling of missing something this few days.
I'm comparing here with the place i visited last year. A place full of memories.
I miss the place, i miss the people there, i miss everything at there. ♥

I was well fed there. I dont have to think of what to eat and what to do.
Everything is well arranged. I miss the cool air around the moutain. I miss all those
jokes and laughter. I broke my promise and i felt so wrong. I should have go again
this year but i did not make it. I want to go there again next year. ):
I dont need to be in the shopping street or shopping mall but just there.
Doing all those jobs that most of the teenagers wouldnt do, i felt so proud of myself.

If you ever ask me to choose where i want to go, i will definately say there no matter what
it takes. That is the country i want to go for so long. I did and i fall for it.
I feel great when i'm at there. Wake up early in the morning, walk out the room and get
fresh air. Everything is so perfect. Green trees, cold weather, sound of the water and
i can even see everyone smiling at me in such early morning.

All i can say is, i'm living in a happy and simple life there.
Two weeks of experience at there is more than i can describe.
I miss there so badly. I wonder if i really can go there ever again. I miss those time
i spend with them, playing in the river, walking on the mountain and so many more.

There are many things in life, we experience, we capture and we keep. It is always
a part of our memories. Memories never dies but always keep us awake of what we did
and what we treassure ♥

I learnt a lot from them. I get to know a lot of people. I get to understand more thing in life.
At that moment of time, i felt myself was loved by so many of them.
I learnt that, we should always treassure, experience and appreciate whatever we have
especially from our love one. Nothing is free in this world yet nothing is easy.
Life is simple but not easy. Is just depends on how we treat it and how we act.

This is my feeling right now. I just miss everything there and i miss you ♥
I think a lot these days, about my friendship, family and relationship.
I'm lucky to have everything. I'll hold on to this great chance and appreciate it.

I'll try my best to hold all this love with all my heart.
I'll use all my afford to make thing perfect and make everyone around me happy :)

I'm appreciating every single one of you who came in to my life
especially my family, friends and you. I miss you badly too ! ♥

2010-12-08T18:28:00.003+08:00

Hello babey ! ♥

This is the piica i sent to you naaarh.

Ahahahaha, very funny wan ! :D

Its our 3rd month together people !

Ohohoho, i'm so happy to have him with me !

Ohh, bless us with eternity :)

I wish i could be with you as long as possible.

You're all i need for now.

I miss you so so much right now

Baby, wait for my return. I LOVE YOU ! ♥

Mwaaaahks ♥

Missin the time we were together

2010-12-07T22:56:00.002+08:00

Hello hello ! Yaya, I finally came back blogging. Ahahahaha !

Sorry for ditching you bloggie, now let me feed you with some updates.

Ahahaha ! I'm going away for a family trip tomorrow and will only be back after 5days !

Can you imagine it ? 5 days without listening to his voice, without knowing how will he be,

without talking to him, without laughing on the cellphone, without sharing our thing,

without good night kiss and stuffs. Oh my gwaaaaat ! How am i going to live ?

When you're in Singapore for 3 days, i'm missing you like crazie.

I felt so lonely but yet i'm still happy because you're still with me. I know who you

feel in this 5 days but i will try my very best to accompany you whenever i can.

For you guy's information, i'm very lazy now a days. ahahahha !

I don't wake until the sun rise up to my head or someone came an disturb me from

my sleep. ahahaha ! I love sleeping, thats the reason so please excuse me :D

I miss you darling, babes and dear ! ♥

ahahaha ! Is this call happy family ? ahaha ! :D

Kinda hyper now, excuse me again. Thankiew ♥

[P/s : chui kah chun ! Please take care of yourself arr, miss you ! ]

Rockin days ♥

2010-12-02T12:06:00.008+08:00

Hey people ! Let me tell you this, i had a great day with all my babes.

Yesterday and a day before yesterday was greats days to me especially i get to hang

out with all my darling and also my babe ♥ :D

First of all, i needa say sorry to Li Yueng and the gang for not making myself free AGAIN

on Tuesday. I'm sorry ! ):

Tuesday, a last minute plan work out and because i used the reason i wanna put pressie for

Sok Fun's sweet sixteen and the fact is i did and its true, hahahaha ! I'm not lying anyway.

Walk around mid and garden with Babey, nee and keng yao and met a lot of school friends :)

Funniest part is when i saw thina in his working attire. He's black and his working attire also

black in colour. I couldnt see him until he smile and look at me. Ahahahaha !

There is when i was laughing like a crazy woman just met a dinasour or something. hahaha !

A great day because i finally saw my dear again although its just a few hours ______ ♥

Wednesday, went to Sok Fun's birthday party at wingz.

She actually cried and say thankiew for giving her such a surprise ;D Ahahaha !

They rock my night to the max ! :)

It couldn't be prefect enough without you. Nee thanks for everything and my dear !

He came and look for me, ahahhaha ! Walk around the night market and hang around

in station one until eleven something ;D

Let me tell you guys about this, first time going out with boyfie at night and walk around

night market _______♥ Woohooo, feeling great as in like really great ! ♥

Miss all the time we're together and all the fun we had.

Our memories always stay in my heart and never be the pass memories :)

Scroll down to look at those pictures.

[p/s: there's only some part of it, not uploading all here. Check on my facebook or the others

if you want to have a look]

Non edit pictures :)

My love ♥

Love you with all my hearts babe ! ♥

Only you ♥

2010-11-28T23:35:00.007+08:00

You were once in my life but now you're in my life again.

I've never regret of having you with me.

This kind of feeling is way too great and way too hard for me to explain.

My feeling of hiding the truth from you is finally released.

I'm very happy to have you with me now ♥

You did not get mad at me, i'm very happy of it because i know i should

not hide it from you for so long but dear i dont want you to blame yourself about it and

i want hear no more sorry, that's just a simple request from me, please sweetheart :)

I'm very happy this few days because i get to know you more and share with you all my pass.

I'm telling you about my pass is because i want you to know everything about me.

You told me that i'm the first for many many thing, i could not believe it but yet it is a fact.

ahahahaha ! Everytime we talk about it my heart beats fast, my face turns red and my face shows a wide smile. I want no fullstop in this love. Make me trust you and hold this love babey.

Lovingyoumadly ♥

People, i'm really bored with what i am doing now a days.

I'm lazy and tired of going out. I'm sorry if i kept cant join you all in those outing.

I'm so so sorry. I promise to have it next time but not this time ):

I did not regret of having you in my life babey ♥

2010-11-25T13:05:00.003+08:00

As you know holidays started for everyone in kindergarten, primary and secondary school.

Its a good thing but yet it is also a bad thing. I so damn boreeeeed nothing.

Nothing can be done besides going for tuition.

I need entertainment ! Ehhh, actually i have nothing to say in blog now days.

Nothing new nothing hot nothing special nothing funny nothing interesting to talk about ):

I'm soooo sorry readers ! Will update more maybe after this weekends ?

Btw, i'm going off on the 8th to 12th.

So i will not be updating any post until i come back or maybe i will.

Enjoooooy all your parties, gathering and outing people ! :)

Dear sweetheart,

Here's something here for you :)

I'm sorry for making you worry all the time. I hope you wouldn't mind caring and

loving me this way. There is difference between need and want, like and love.

For me, i wanted you because i need you. I like you thats why i love you ♥ ! :)

I'm sorry all my bestie that i couldnt join them today.

I'm having tuition all day long, sorry and i will try my best to join you guys next time :)
Enjooooooooooooy ! ♥

You're all i need babey ♥

You're always in my heart :)

2010-11-21T01:52:00.004+08:00

I felt exhausted right now and i'm tired but i just couldnt sleep.

I miss you so much ):

Arrrgh, dont feel sorry babe because i felt more sorry than you.

Let me surprise you with something, ngeeek ngek ! I'm always notii and you know it. ahaha

I got a few more picture of you, yay me ! :D

Ahahahha ! Webbie with him just now when he came online.

If you see this please remember that not to spend too much money just to online and

accompany me. Remember yea babe :)

Let me show you, hehe !

He look so darn cute with his spec, muahahhaha ! :D

I miss you babey ! ♥

Early in the morning

2010-11-20T12:30:00.006+08:00

Had lots of fun with you guys yesterday, miss the fun we had.

I'm posting this to tell YOU everything about yesterday since i couldnt talk to you

much this few days, no worries i'm still missing you. hiaaak hiaaak ! ♥

Woke up early in the morning and its really early, ahahhaha !

Its okay, as long as i dont miss the fun but i got sun burn now. I get darker just

because of the sun,sigh. Hahahahha ! Someone is so happy because i get darker now.

Aheeeem ! Neeeeeh, i will be fair again , dont worry. ahahha ! wait me wor :D

Second pic below is so so freakin funny, muahahhhaha !

I mean that guy who look like a chicken little :D

ngaaaaaaaaaaa hahahhaha ! I laugh every single time i see it.

Lucky me i got a great shot and show it to all of you ! muahhaha :D

The last picture in here is when we're caught under a heavy rain.

We sat inside a cover place for about half hour ? i dont really remember how long.

My back and hair was all wet but lucky i didnt fall a sick if not someone gonna scold me :D

aahahahhaa !

Now now now ! My dear went Singapore already arr, i miss you so much ♥ ! ><

Lucky i get to take pictures with him before he go for his trip if not i gonna miss him

like crazy. ahahaha ! On call with him for awhile just now, i felt so happy and i have no

idea why. ahahha ! Let me tell you this, i miss him till i cry again just now when i was having

lunch with my sister. She was like, awww, you crying ? ooh dont cry la. ahahhaa ! so cute ! :D

I miss you babey ! ): ♥

Fast fast come back to me, i need you dear ! :)

Muahahhahhaha :D

Miss you babey ♥

The day we're together ♥

2010-11-18T21:54:00.007+08:00

Its been a long time since i have not update and now i gonna update something

about today. what a great precious and memorable day for me.

I miss today so freakin much. I have no words to describe about it.

Not even 10 steps away from you, i started to miss you.

Its been awhile i have not meet you since the last time. Almost a month i have not seen

you. What will i be if i dont even get to meet you for more than a month ?

Lucky its only 27 days after the last time we met each other but its killing me ! ):

I miss the time i'm with you. I miss the time we're talking. I miss the time we're laughing.

I miss the time you're with me. I miss the time we holding each others hand.

I miss the time when you are right beside me. I miss the time we're joking.

I miss the time when you pampered me. I miss the time you holding me tight.

I miss the time you hold me back when i walked away.

I miss the time when you show me how important i am.

I miss the time you hold me from those stranger i almost bang into.

I miss the time you hug me. I miss the time when you told me that you love me very much.

I miss every moment i'm with you ♥

I miss you just so badly enough ):

If i'm given a chance to hold you tight and never let you go, i bet i will do so.

As days passes by i love you more.

I dont want you to belong to anyone else anymore ):

I know i sounds greedy here but i just need you so much. I know nothing last forever.

No one knows what will happen but i really want to cherish the time we have together

and only want you to be with me.

You're the first guy who made me cry just because of missing you ):

Every single thing that happen between us since last year.

From the incident till today, everything that happen between us are deeply remembered

in my heart ! I dont mind how meet at first but i only care how we go and how we are now ):

Babe, i love you and miss you so so much right now ):

I couldnt stop my feeling towards you, i dont know why.

What can i do ? I just too miss you badly dear ):

Do you remember the moment i tell you, i love you very much while holding your hand

tight ? imissyoubadlybabyboy ♥

Just do me a little favour dear.

Stay, care, cherish, appreciate and love each other.

I wanna hold this love with you sweetheart ♥

Muacks ! ♥

You're special and different from what your appearance show to others :)

I LOVE YOU ! ♥

I miss you ♥

I love you babey ♥

last day in school ♥

2010-11-12T18:57:00.005+08:00

Hooooooooray !

Last day of school, muahahha ! I'm happy and yet i'm not.

I miss my friends and those silly stupid thing we always do in school.

Ohohoho, make my holiday a blast.

A few weeks before it ended, school life really suck.

I have no words to describe about it.

We was forced to fill in a form which wants feedback from us about the activities

after PMR today. Guess what we wrote ? ahhahaha !

The questions sounds like this.

Did we enjoy those activities ? answer : No

Do you think the activities are interesting ? answer : definitely No

Do you think the activities brings a lot of benefits to student : answer : No

Do you think the places of the activities is taken part is suitable : answer : No

Have you won any prizes from the activitis : answer : yes but we didnt get our presie ;D haha

There are still subjectives for us to answer and most of us did not answer that part

and we got a shooooot from one teacher. ahahha ! ;D

Here comes the questions.

Which activities you found it most fun ?

answer : non of it / amazing race / talking time

What activities do you think we should organize for the students ?

answer : tidur/ apa apa saja / etc .. haha

How can we inspire more students to join the activities ?

answer : give money / give more present / make it easy ahahha !

What activities do you enjoy the most ?

answer : non of it. ahhaha ! ;D

This is how we answer it ! We simply answered it and we gave them a really bad answer, i know. ahahhaha ! It is because we're lazy and what more it is our LAST DAY ! wooooooohooo ;D

[ p/s: ignore my look during school time. ugly and simple :) ]

You guys rock to the max ♥

Full house ♥

2010-11-12T18:25:00.004+08:00

Alright people !

Let me tell you this, i'm officially on holiday now until the school re-open next year.

I'm sure i will be dead bored. Ahahahha !

I hope he can safe me from boredom ;D

Went Fullhouse with family and one of my sister's friend last sunday if i'm not mistaken.

Saw Kim with his girlfriend. Basically, i showed a very funny face and he did it too.

Lmao ! *skip* Took a few pictures there and i had uploaded some of it.

So enjoy ! ;D

Hearts you always my dear ♥

2010 school life :)

2010-11-10T16:23:00.004+08:00

Is coming to end of our school life this year.

I know i will miss it very much especially the jokes and laughters.

I always learn something new when it comes to an end of something.

School life for this year will officially end on this Friday.

I felt that school really give me a lot of memories especially my classmates.

They see me mad, they see me cry, they see me sad, they see me high, they see me

laugh, they see me smile, they see me joke, they see me play, they see me eat and

they see me crazy. I really do miss the time we have all spent together :)

The time we spent together. The laughters we made. The noise we create. The jokes

we shared. The games and actions we did. The words we used.

Every moment of this, always stay in my heart :)

Everyone of you are special to me.

Everyone of you have your own style and i just like the way you all are.

I know most of you care for me and i really do appreciate it :)

I nidda thanks most of you because had spent and shared most of your thing with me.

I know how much you all care for me. You all are the one who came to me and asked me

what happen, what can you all help and comfort me. I still remember that, there is a day

when i'm super duper upset. I was crying in class. I was all alone that time.

You all wrote me a note and put it on my table when i went to toilet.

That wrote, ''Manda, cheer up ! =D and we hearts you.'' The little yellow piece

of paper is still in my file :)

It meant a lot to me, i don't know why. I cheered up automatically after i saw that.

Thaaaaaaaanks a lot to all of you ! xoxo ♥

Yesterday was a perfect date, 09-11-10 :)

I'm now inlove with the 09th on every month in the calendar. muahahhaha !

I love the time we spend. The thing we talked. The story we shared. The effort we made.

The smile we showed. The laughters we create. The care we showed and the love we hold :) ♥

I'm just deeply inlove with you. I miss you badly again and again.

I dont mind missing you this way because i know you're still with me and i love you.

That covers everything.

Hearts you ♥

A windy day :)

2010-11-07T12:06:00.010+08:00

It was a beautiful saturday morning and i went one day trip with

my family and my dad's friend family.

It was a windy day, nice ! ;D

Let the picture tell you the story :)

A miss you day

2010-11-05T22:43:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna blog what basically in my thoughts today.

Come or go, he is always in my thoughts. This is an unchangeable fact.

I miss him so so so freaking much. He is all over my mind !

Arrrrrgh ! I feel like staring at him night and day !

I'm sorry that i couldn't be there to take care of you since you are sick.

You know i would, if i can. I'm sorry !

Just wanna let you know that i really do worry about you.

You're sick right now and i can do nothing besides asking you to rest more

and drink more water. I wanna do more than that !

I feel better when you tell me you gonna skip school tomorrow, i know you dont want to

but for its for your health. It do worth for skipping school and rest at home.

I know we chat less today but my love for you did not decrease yet i miss you more ):

When i'm having dinner, i day dream you again. I miss you a lot !

When you called me at night, although is just a few minutes. I'm super duper happy.

Your voice had told me how tired you are. Rest more babey !

I know wE dont chat much this two days. You're tired and sick and i don't blame you.

Don't feel sorry dear. I know our love will still be so strong.

Have trust between us :)

I admit that i'm more than just a worry for you. ):

I care for you and thats why i'm worry.

Right after that call. I kept thinking of you and my tears roll down.

I know i'm silly and i'm a cry baby, is just that i scared something bad will

happen to you. I wanna see the healthy and happy you !

GET WELL SOON !

I miss you baaaaaaaaaaaadly ):

♥ L.O.V.E.Y.O.U.

Your smile melt my heart :)

2010-11-04T11:01:00.002+08:00

He's my boy and i love him.

I appreciate him a lot.

I will cherish the time i have him with me.

I miss him badly.

I miss the time he sang to me.

I miss his hug around me.

I will never get bored talking with him.

He always keep me entertain.

No matter we have topic to talk about or not

we still can talk for hours.

I felt that i love him too deep and i

think of him all the time.

Everytime i think of him, i have fear in me.

I'm worry and scared that he will leave me.

I dare not imagine

how will i be if he left me.

Whenever i imagine and think, i had already feel

the pain. Everytime i closed my eye

and think, i wish that you

will never leave me.

I know i couldn't bare the pain and i promise

i will cry like never.

If this ever happen, i will change naturally.

I know, i will.

Oh dear ! I don't wish and i don't want you to leave.

I don't even dare to think about it

anymore, is painful and fearful.

No one knows what will happen in the

next second but for now i

will try my best to hold on to you.

Keep you with me.

Share you everything, keep you happy and

hold you tightly and never let you go.

I have let you go once without holding you back

but not this time. Now, i get to know

you more and i don't want to get separated

from you again.

People do change and thats what i'm afraid of.

I'm afraid that everything will change between us.

I'm afraid of a lot of thing.

I need you to be with me.

Everytime we argued my heart felt so pain.

I'm afraid again.

I'm afraid that you will leave me.

Once i have you in my life, i rely on you.

I know i shouldn't but you made me have

trust in you and thats why

i depends on you.

I care for you because i'm worry about you.

I help you because i care for you.

I think of you because i miss you.

I give you surprises because i want you to be happy.

I rely on you because i need you with me.

I sacrifice for you because i love you.

I need your smile to warm my heart babe.

Please and never leave me.

mwahs ♥

2010-11-03T14:18:00.002+08:00

Ngaaaaaaaaaah hah ! Since i have private my blog and only invited

some of them. So now, i gonna write whatever i like !

ahhaha ! ;D

This is what i sent to him yesterday 12 am.

There is also a sound clip along with this picture actually.

A happy birthday song sang by me and

the original song singer.

Is just a simple gift :)

I remember every moment we have.

I keep what he said.

I do for his good and hope for the best.

He said, no one remember his birthday all this while.

No one actually celebrated it with him.

I hope the best for him.

I wish his friend will celebrate it with him at least

a small surprise for him, it came true and

i'm happy of it.

He said, no one would remember and care about.

I prove it wrong,

I gave him a little surprise by asking most of my friends

to text him at 12am on his birthday.

I thanks so much to those who helped me bcoz

they sacrifice their sleeping time

to help me. I got touched and felt thankiew ! ♥

I'm happy that when i know he was shocked, happy and touched !

ahhahahha ! ;D

Seeing so many unknown wishing him birthday and his friend

went and find him at 12am.

Celebrate it again during recess time. Aww, wonderful !

How i wish i will have one too :)

Btw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN ♥

What a great day to smile !

2010-11-03T10:35:00.000+08:00

Alright now !

I gonna wish two of my precious person, happy birthday.

A person who brought me laughters, memories and happiness. A person whom i

appreciate a lot. Most important, i hearts the person (:

Haaaaaaaaaaappy birthday to the 'cute' Kar Hui :)

Ahahaha ! He's a classmates of mine and he got the name 'cute' from my mum's

friend during the BBQ party. I know him for about 2 years plus and i'm totally

disagree with his name 'cute', haha ! He got that name because he is childish ! muahaha !

I know you always get bully from us, what a lucky guy ! haha ;D

He can talk jokes as he like non stop and he will be acting cool, not laughing

at what he say and that make us more wild. ahha !

You're a funny and 'cute' friend i ever had :)

Happy birthdaaaaaaaaaaaay to Kah Chun ! (:

I wish you a happy sweeeet 15th birthday and i wish you all the best.

He're a funny and understanding guy whom i know for a year plus.

What a great thing ! Although, we seldom meet up but seriously, i have not

regret of meeting you. You're way too different than your first look to the others.

He would actually do whatever he wants to keep someone happy and i'm so proud of it.

He is a person whom you couldn't judge from the appearance because he is way

better than what you think. Don't judge if you dont know him ! :)

I have no idea how to describe about him but most importantly,

he's more than you can see ! :)

♥♥♥

♥ You're apart of my heart beat

2010-11-01T11:48:00.000+08:00

If a tear should fall

catch it in the palm of your hand

when there is no more words left

find a way to tell me you love me

if I get lost in my world

guide me with your voice

when my bones ache to much to go on

carry me through

if I go crazy from the sounds in my head

look at me the same way as before

when everyone leaves at the end of the day

never leave me alone

if I don't know what to do next

grab my hand and hold on tight

when I need you

I know if I ask you, you'll be there

I find my life boring and meaningless when you're

not there with me.

All i need is you thats why i did not want to let you go.

What can i do ?

Nothing but just stay, care and love you.

You are part of my heart beat from now.

I couldnt live without you !

♥

Sukyi's big daaay !

2010-11-01T10:20:00.000+08:00

Heeeey people !

It has been a long time i have not start my post with hey people, hey peeps, etc etc ;D

As usual, i skipped school again and i will only be back to school on Thursday.

Let's see. Its Sukyi's birthdaay and i wonder how she feel ;D

Haaappy Birthday To Sukyi !

She is one of the best friend i have. I tell you what, she's a good secret keeper ;D

Dont ever go to her and ask my thing because its just a waste of time. haaha !

she will not tell you anything ;D

I love her smile so freakin much, really. Is so sweeeet !

I know many of you guys will actually agree with me. Hahaaha !

You're another year older and i hope your pimplesssss will not grow more ;D

How nice will it be if every single birthday party you attend will make your

pimple grow lesser ? hahaha. silly thinking *wink*

Heart attack !

2010-10-31T00:06:00.000+08:00

I've no idea how, why and who made me felt like this.

I felt like talking but i have no idea what i wanna say. I wanna find someone to talk

but there is no one with me.

I am feeling kinda down ):

I just hope you are here with me right now !

I'm exhausted right now, please make me talk ! arrgh !

Just let me talk to my blog since i have no one to talk with now. *sigh*

Went and accompanied my buddies to work yesterday, somewhere near Sunway.

Jokes and laughter are always there with us. Met up with Suk Kyi and Kar Hui at PM.

Continue eating and there is where i grow bigger,larger and more huge :(

I'm so freakin tired and i just want my bed ! ><

Woke up early again today and went for the Singapore Scholarship intake examination.

Arrrgh, I screwed all of it ! :)

I dont even understand any one of the question of the english paper and honestly,

I was day dreaming in the hall and I'm so tired, kinda headache, cold and my mind is wondering

somewhere else, dont blame me for it. Ahaha !

Maths paper is also hard for me, the standard is way too high for me.

Their expectation is so high !

Conclusion of these two days : Tired, worried, disappointed, sleepy and sigh.

I saw something that i shouldn't be seeing and i know is not the truth.

I know it is just a joke but i'm too sensitive to it because i'm afraid of ___________!

I'm speechless right now.

Will update soon.

[p/s: i know this is a lame post, i'm sorry and you may ignore this ><]

Adrian's big day !

2010-10-27T12:39:00.000+08:00

Heeeeeeey people !

Today is a special day to my best dude. Hoooho !

27-10-95 is the day when he was brought to this world and its his birthday today ! :)

Haaaaaappy 15TH Birthdaaaaaaaaay Adrian KOK !

[p/s : yeaah right, i purposely cap lock your sur name, haha !]

He is a friendly guy who i have ever met.

He is the one who help me whenever i needed a hand.

He brought me a lot of memorable memories.

He made me laugh all the time.

He is the one who i share my story with.

He is also the one who always want us to translate

what we said in english after our conversation in chinese

but at least he is better now.

Ahahaha ! ;D

Our friendship started at the end of form one life.

If you ever compare his look before this and now,

you will definitely say he look better now.

When he was form 1 and 2, he look

so freakin fierce whatmore with his spec.

Ohhh my, he can be a good friend to you and also a

good joker. Hahaha !

Ahahhaa ! Just a short description ! :)

--- ENJOY THE PARTY TONIGHT ---

The day i'm waiting for.

2010-10-26T18:43:00.001+08:00

The day had came in a blink of eyes.

Everything turns out to be a success and i need to thanks my cousin and his girlfriend

for making it happen. Because of you both i get to enjoy myself that day.

A happy day with you all :)

I miss everything that had happen that day.

I miss the jokes we talked about and the laughters we made.

Everything that happened on that day is still clearly remembered in my heart :)

I lovin' it ♥

Let's talk about yesterday.

Seven of us went to supermarket to buy groceries. Ahahaha !

Cant imagine right ? ;D

We bought groceries for the BBQ party tomorrow and is a big day for Adrian !

Celebrating three peoples' birthday in a party, awesome !

Who gonna fall into the pool first tomorrow ? Hahaaha ! Let's see.

Here's the pic about yesterday.

(Just a part of it)

The topping ;)

They love it -.- ! xD

Hearts ♥

Laughter are all over the place

2010-10-22T01:17:00.000+08:00

Let me shorten everything and tell you what i felt about today.
Went for a school trip today to Pusat Sains Negara.
Awesome place for us to have fun especially the various type of mirror.
Played like a small kid. Even other school teacher laughed at us when those
guys making those funny pose infront the mirror.

A day full of laughter but not least also sorrowness.
I have no idea why, dont ask me.

Miing Pin actually met new friend there, a small little kid.
Ahahaha ! Another funny part was, we went into a dark place which is actually not
allowed to enter but since they didnt close the place and there is no notice we went in.
We ran inside there and ran out again like we got chased by some ghost. Ahaha ;D
This is my class. Full with crazy, funny people.

We also went to the park somewhere around there.
I dont think we are actually allowed to but no one bother so we didnt bother too much.
Hahaaha, we ran under the hot sun and played like a kid in the park.
Adrian actually cycled a bicycle just on a rope. Whoa, what a great job he did !
He did not fell down, he felt like he is in a circus but who knows someone is
holding him from down there. Ahahaha !

I'm totally freakin happy with today besides the emo parts. Haha !
You guys are always the right one for me to mix to.
Funny, awesome, rocking and crazy. I guess i should add something, maybe someone
will agree with what i say. Ahahaha ! You guys are also a good raper. Dont you ?

Last before i go to sleep.
I have never seen a couple who is as sweet as they both.
Awww, we're so touched. *smirk*
They had the same sur name. They were both sitting together in the bus.
They look onto a phone together with a smile.
They stick their head together as they couldnt leave without each other.
Laughter and sweet talks are all over.
What a great sweet couple i have ever seen, Lmao ! Ahahahhahhahhaa ! ;D

Will upload those pictures tomorrow if i'm free.
Last word, it has been a long time i have ever felt the happiness like this since
primary school. The feeling of being together with friends for trip.
Whatmore we great people :)
''Laughter are all over the place with great people''

Hearts ♥

100930 [Mv] When Falling In Love With A Friend - Ryeowook Reige

2010-10-19T13:32:00.000+08:00

I'm bored !

Just randomly post this becuase i find it quite nice ;D